Trying to be the me without you
Somehow, I’ve got this Christmas mood still going on within me. I can’t believe Christmas passed just like that. Perhaps I was hoping for a miracle in this joyous festival but it did not came true.
I feel really helpless. All on my own and I’ve no clue on what I should do. Letting the pain eat me slowly every single day.
It feels kind of great to spend time with my sec sch friends. Helps to take things off my mind momentarily.
I really wish I don’t have to feel disappointment.
I thought this Christmas would be special. One that is different from all the ones I’ve spent. One that would be so special, I would remember it my whole life. I was so looking forward to it actually.
Apparently, I was so wrong. It’s just the same as all the other years. Just a day which makes me feel lonelier than a usual day.
I just got to get used to be alone.